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Showing posts with label hope. Show all posts
Sunday, February 14, 2010
Shine in our hearts
Shine in our hearts, Lord Jesus, and light us up so that you shine out of us as well. Amen
Readings
Let's reflect a bit today on theophany – that's a word for things like what we just read, Moses seeing God face to face and the disciples seeing Jesus transfigured into light and talking to Moses and Elijah, and God's voice coming out of a cloud.
Theophany is when God reveals himself in ways that we can't deny, when God shows up in ways that freak us out because they are so real, when something happens that moves us so deeply, we either say or do idiotic things trying to make some kind of response - or we don't' talk about it at all because we can't find any words that will work to really convey what happened.
You may not often talk about those experiences, or maybe you only tell one other person or a couple of people you really trust, but there is no way you can ever forget what you saw or what you heard or what you felt in that moment. And there's no way you can go back to how it was not knowing that things like that are real. Even though later, you may question whether you dreamed it or imagined it, deep down you know you didn't make it up.
And I think we hope that what we experience in moments like that is the true reality. We hope that what we see around us in mundane daily life is just a pale reflection of the way things really are, what life really is at the core. The difficulty in hope, though is it's a (seemingly) very fragile thing, and you hesitate to lay it out completely because you're not sure it could survive disappointment. Or maybe you know somehow deeply that if you completely hope for all you desire, there's no way you could stay in control – you'd be at the mercy of how God responds. And if you laid out your deepest hope to God, you couldn't stay aloof from him and safe from what you fear would happen if you found that God either doesn't want or isn't able to fulfill what you hope for – that your hope may in fact be foundationless. You think your hope is what keeps you alive, and you couldn't survive losing it.
So you hedge your prayers, you pray for what seems reasonable, for what God couldn't refuse; you pray in ways that give God an "out" in case he doesn't answer or doesn't want to or maybe isn't actually able to – because maybe he doesn't actually exist …
But why do you think we have hopes if there isn't actually a reality they're based on? Thomas Aquinas hashed this question out from both the theological and philosophical point of view, and he says we're right to hope - because God does exist and God is good – and he hasn't made a desire without its object. We have hope because there is such a thing as its fulfillment. Aquinas says that if we have a desire, not only does its object exist, but it's attainable and it's also good – in fact, it's intended. God isn't cruel – he hasn't made us so that we hope for things that don't exist or are bad for us or that he has no intention of giving us – so that we'll eternally be frustrated in our deepest desires.
No, God is good, and he's given us good desires, and he's also put in us a desire for himself as the greatest good, so when moments of theophany happen, we are getting a glimpse, a taste of what is most deeply true about God's relationship to us and his love for us.
So, if what we hope for is predicated on a real object, then its fulfillment is possible, and if in fact, this fulfillment was designed and intended by God and is in God's power to grant, then we should have no fear in asking for it – because it's already what God also wants: our wholeness, our integration. What you most deeply desire… already is – and is in God's power to give you.
Are you willing to risk asking for it?
And I mean hopes – those things you most deeply ache for, that you don't think are even reasonable, that you don't think you have any business asking God for because there's no way they could be accomplished. It would take a miracle…
That's what I'm talking about –what kind of church is this if it's not about miraculous expectation? So I'll tell you what I've started doing as a result of this thought process: I've started asking God for what I hope for St. John's: for you as a community and you as individuals. I invite you to do the same… Hope everything you can imagine for us and ask God to do it. And don't hedge or make qualifications to "let God off the hook" in case it doesn't happen – that is your fear and attempt to control the situation so that you can't be disappointed. Instead, try risking disappointment on God.
I'm praying that God starts to breathe on your hearts so that the little embers of hope in there start heating you up inside and even starting to hurt – some of the prophets have said God's word can feel like a fire in your bones. I'm hoping that what he desires for us begins to burn inside us also, until it starts to shine out in our faces and in what we say and what we do. What are y'all waiting for anyway? "Remember that you are dust, and to dust you'll return."
An interesting thing about fire, which I've learned from the firefighters in Vidor, is that it doesn't even have to touch its fuel to ignite it. A fire in one spot can gradually heat an entire area, and anything that can be fuel, when it reaches its ignition temperature, will spontaneously combust at that point. So, in a room where there's a fire in one corner, when the entire room reaches a certain temperature, will completely erupt in flame everywhere.
It's called flashover. Here is another video showing fire behavior leading up to a rollover (burning across the ceiling) and then a flashover (everything erupting in flame).
You know somebody's been burning churches in east Texas, and the interesting thing about that, I think, is they're confusing a symbol of God's power with the thing itself, as though a fire in a church building would destroy the Church. It's the same mistake people make when they try to kill Christians – when they tried to kill Christ. In our worship, fire represents to us God's presence with us in the Holy Spirit, and at Jayde's baptism last week, we lit a candle to symbolize the light of Christ in her heart. Fire is a symbol of God's presence because, like fire, God is not safe, not predictable.
Talking about flashover, maybe Pentecost was something like that. My prayer is that during Lent, God will breathe on you and start a little fire in a corner of your heart, and we'll see what happens by Pentecost.
Amen.
Given to St. John's, Silsbee
February 14, 2010
Tuesday, April 14, 2009
Second Word
The Second Word
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“Save us!”
On Sunday, people were saying it with joy and excitement, like they maybe thought it was true. Because that’s what “Hosannah!” means – “Save us!”
Now, it’s bitter sarcasm; it’s despair that becomes mockery.
- amazing how hope can make you so fragile, teetering so precariously over love and hatred, joy and bitterness.
In a way, their hatred and bitter sarcasm shows the hope underneath, the hope that is cracking under the strain of waiting so long and feeling it will never be realized.
What keeps hope alive? What is the food of hope?
It’s memory.
We have hope that God will be merciful to us, because we remember that he has been merciful to us.
How do we remember? We tell the stories – over and over and over. We make monuments, and write books. We act the stories out, we put them into poems and songs and art and liturgy. Every week, we meet together and remind each other.
Like the Seder meal, we have hope God’s promises will be fulfilled, because we remember how they have been fulfilled. And that memory works both ways. We ask Jesus to remember us, and he asks us to remember him.
Jesus, remember me when you come into your kingdom.
Do this in remembrance of me.
“Today you will be with me in paradise.”
I am with you now in your suffering. You will be with me in paradise.
Remember this.
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Friday, April 11, 2008
Thomas - not falling for that again
Year A, Easter 2
Readings: Acts 2:14a,22-32 1 Peter 1:3-9 John 20:19-31 Psalm 16
A lot of times, people refer to this story as being about 'Doubting Thomas,' because Thomas didn't believe the disciples when they told him they'd seen Jesus. He said he'd have to see it for himself. He'd have to put his finger in the nail holes in Jesus' hands before he'd believe that Jesus was really alive.
Fr. John has talked before about doubt, saying that the opposite of doubt is not faith; the opposite of doubt is certainty. Just because you sometimes doubt, doesn't mean you don't believe or you don't have faith. You can be in both of those places at once; it's actually a pretty common thing to be partly believing and partly doubting at the same time - or mostly believing with a little prickle of doubt - or mostly doubting with just a tiny piece of hope that would even just like to believe.
It's hard sometimes to figure out what's true and what's real and so what to believe.
All four of the gospels describe situations where various people encountered Jesus after he rose from the dead - and all four gospels talk about people not believing it at first when they heard about it - some of them even had a hard time believing it when he was standing right in front of them.
Thomas wasn't the only one who doubted - he's just the one who got stuck with the label.
Listen to some of the other stories about what happened after the resurrection.
Here's part of the story from Luke ..on the first day of the week, at early dawn, [several of the women] went to the tomb, taking the spices which they had prepared. And they found the stone rolled away from the tomb, but when they went in they did not find the body. While they were perplexed about this, behold, two men stood by them in dazzling apparel; and as they were frightened and bowed their faces to the ground, the men said to them, "Why do you seek the living among the dead? Remember how he told you, while he was still in Galilee, that the Son of man must be delivered into the hands of sinful men, and be crucified, and on the third day rise." And they remembered his words, and returning from the tomb they told all this to the eleven and to all the rest. Now it was Mary Mag'dalene and Jo-an'na and Mary the mother of James and the other women with them who told this to the apostles; but these words seemed to them an idle tale, and they did not believe them.
-That had to have been really frustrating for those women. They saw two men in shining clothes, who told them Jesus was alive. So they went and told the apostles and all the rest - but the apostles thought it was 'an idle tale' - some ridiculous story they all - collectively, the whole group of them - made up or imagined... you know how we women can be so hysterical sometimes...
Here's how the story goes in Mark -
So, here, it's not just Thomas - it's everybody who has a hard time believing that Jesus is really alive. I don't blame them. It's been their experience - mine too - that people who die...stay dead. But with Jesus, suddenly that doesn't seem to hold true. It had to be very shocking and hard to believe, even if he was standing right in front of them - maybe especially so because he was standing right in front of them.
Hearing the story as we do after the fact, and after many centuries of getting used to the idea, it doesn't seem so shocking. We can think about it abstractly - I believe in Jesus, that he died and rose again, that he is here with us today... And I do - But it's not like I can see him physically standing here saying, like he did to Thomas, "Put your finger here, and see my hands; and put out your hand, and place it in my side..."
I believe that Jesus died and rose again, but it's pretty much impossible for me to really know that. I didn't see him die; I didn't go to the tomb and see the angels; I didn't touch his feet. I wasn't there...
Some of the philosophers, when they talk about knowledge, say that we can only know what we experience. The rest, we have to believe - or not. It's a choice we make, based on a lot of factors. One of the biggest is trust - trust in the person giving the information
Once a few decades ago, when people were less skeptical than they are now, a radio broadcaster began giving a fake newscast about an alien attack, and people became very panicked because they believed it was real - the joke really backfired, because people took it seriously. Then, after that, they were uncertain whether to believe the news or not.
Trust is much easier to break than to rebuild.
What's the rest? ......... "Fool me twice, shame on me."
This is what I'm hearing when Thomas says,
"Unless I see in his hands the print of the nails, and place my finger in the mark of the nails, and place my hand in his side, I will not believe."Thomas had put everything into the belief that Jesus was the Messiah, the one his people had been waiting for. He trusted Jesus. He believed him. Totally. Hook, line and sinker. Gave up his whole life to follow.
But then Jesus got arrested and killed. And what is a dead Messiah? A dead Messiah had to have been, as CS Lewis framed it, either a liar or a lunatic. Only a live Messiah could be the Lord, but this one was clearly dead.
That had to be a hard pill to swallow, especially on that 'long Saturday' when no one knew what was going on and all they could do was wait to see what would happen next. Nobody had any idea. The hope that Jesus' followers had for a Messiah had been crucified with him. They had put everything into that hope, and it was gone. He was gone. What now?
Nothing - nothing to do but wait.
In TS Eliot's The Four Quartets, he writes
Then, suddenly, people are all over the place saying that Jesus was alive again. He had risen from the dead.
It's hard enough to bury the beautiful dream that you had to watch die so painfully. It's unbearable to have people teasing you with the hope that it's not really dead. Because that's what you wish so much could be true that you can hardly bear even to let yourself think it, much less say it out loud. And when other people are saying it, it's hard not to at least want to believe. But he was not going to fall for that again.
Some people hold their hope close to the surface, and it blooms at the first hint of spring. Others push it down deep where maybe it will survive a freeze. But I think God's the one who planted it in all of us.
This is why I think that, even though Jesus gets on Thomas a little for making it so hard for himself to believe, he still walks through that wall of doubt, past the locked door, to reach him inside.
Whatever it takes, Thomas... Whatever you need to believe it's true - because it is true...
"Put your finger here, and see my hands; and put out your hand, and place it in my side; do not be faithless, but believing."
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Given to St. John's, Silsbee
March 30, 2008
In our society, we've had a lot of broken trusts - in the family and in the larger culture - divorce rates and spousal abuse, child abuse and elder abuse are pretty high; political scandal is commonplace now; we can't keep track of all the professional sports, music and movie stars who are on drugs; not only stockbrokers but even economists are gambling with the finance markets; leaders in corporations and non-profit groups embezzle money frequently - and the church is not immune to any of these things, certainly. The preacher's wife murdering her husband, TV evangelists confessing to everything imaginable, priests molesting children.
Belief in anything truly good has become kind of a quaint notion. People in my generation grew up in a very commercial culture. There's not a lot people my age believe in - although it seems there's a lot they would like to believe. It's just that we've learned by experience that most things are a lie - to sell you something or get something from you. Exploitation, not charity is the normal motivation for a lot of interactions in our culture.
Why do people from various companies, organizations, or colleges call at 6 pm on a weeknight? Because they want you to give them money, obviously.
Why is public school attendance encouraged and rewarded and non-attendance punished? Because education will make children's lives better or because attendance figures determine state funding? What about all those tests? Hard to say sometimes.
What about the health care system - who determines your treatment?
Many people by now expect to be used and mistreated - it comes as a suprise when someone seems genuinely honest - and the key word there is 'seems.' Because even our desire for authenticity has been caught up in marketing strategy - I encourage you to notice this week how many ads use words like 'real' 'genuine' and 'authentic.' Some are beginning to pick up on that also, and we're even more suspicious when we meet someone making claims of truth or authenticity - because we're waiting for the real truth to come out - it almost always does - what is it you want from me?
Mainly, the goal is not to be taken in, not to be hoodwinked, taken for a ride or taken advantage of.
Do you know these?
"Once bitten, twice shy"
"Fool me once, shame on you...."
Readings: Acts 2:14a,22-32 1 Peter 1:3-9 John 20:19-31 Psalm 16
A lot of times, people refer to this story as being about 'Doubting Thomas,' because Thomas didn't believe the disciples when they told him they'd seen Jesus. He said he'd have to see it for himself. He'd have to put his finger in the nail holes in Jesus' hands before he'd believe that Jesus was really alive.
Fr. John has talked before about doubt, saying that the opposite of doubt is not faith; the opposite of doubt is certainty. Just because you sometimes doubt, doesn't mean you don't believe or you don't have faith. You can be in both of those places at once; it's actually a pretty common thing to be partly believing and partly doubting at the same time - or mostly believing with a little prickle of doubt - or mostly doubting with just a tiny piece of hope that would even just like to believe.
It's hard sometimes to figure out what's true and what's real and so what to believe.
All four of the gospels describe situations where various people encountered Jesus after he rose from the dead - and all four gospels talk about people not believing it at first when they heard about it - some of them even had a hard time believing it when he was standing right in front of them.
Thomas wasn't the only one who doubted - he's just the one who got stuck with the label.
Listen to some of the other stories about what happened after the resurrection.
Here's part of the story from Luke ..on the first day of the week, at early dawn, [several of the women] went to the tomb, taking the spices which they had prepared. And they found the stone rolled away from the tomb, but when they went in they did not find the body. While they were perplexed about this, behold, two men stood by them in dazzling apparel; and as they were frightened and bowed their faces to the ground, the men said to them, "Why do you seek the living among the dead? Remember how he told you, while he was still in Galilee, that the Son of man must be delivered into the hands of sinful men, and be crucified, and on the third day rise." And they remembered his words, and returning from the tomb they told all this to the eleven and to all the rest. Now it was Mary Mag'dalene and Jo-an'na and Mary the mother of James and the other women with them who told this to the apostles; but these words seemed to them an idle tale, and they did not believe them.
-That had to have been really frustrating for those women. They saw two men in shining clothes, who told them Jesus was alive. So they went and told the apostles and all the rest - but the apostles thought it was 'an idle tale' - some ridiculous story they all - collectively, the whole group of them - made up or imagined... you know how we women can be so hysterical sometimes...
Here's how the story goes in Mark -
Now when [Jesus] rose early on the first day of the week, he appeared first to Mary Magdalene, from whom he had cast out seven demons. She went and told those who had been with him, as they mourned and wept. But when they heard that he was alive and had been seen by her, they would not believe it. After this he appeared in another form to two of them, as they were walking into the country. And they went back and told the rest, but they did not believe them. Afterward he appeared to the eleven themselves as they sat at table; and he upbraided them for their unbelief and hardness of heart, because they had not believed those who saw him after he had risen. (Mk 16:9-14)
So, here, it's not just Thomas - it's everybody who has a hard time believing that Jesus is really alive. I don't blame them. It's been their experience - mine too - that people who die...stay dead. But with Jesus, suddenly that doesn't seem to hold true. It had to be very shocking and hard to believe, even if he was standing right in front of them - maybe especially so because he was standing right in front of them.
Hearing the story as we do after the fact, and after many centuries of getting used to the idea, it doesn't seem so shocking. We can think about it abstractly - I believe in Jesus, that he died and rose again, that he is here with us today... And I do - But it's not like I can see him physically standing here saying, like he did to Thomas, "Put your finger here, and see my hands; and put out your hand, and place it in my side..."
I believe that Jesus died and rose again, but it's pretty much impossible for me to really know that. I didn't see him die; I didn't go to the tomb and see the angels; I didn't touch his feet. I wasn't there...
Some of the philosophers, when they talk about knowledge, say that we can only know what we experience. The rest, we have to believe - or not. It's a choice we make, based on a lot of factors. One of the biggest is trust - trust in the person giving the information
Once a few decades ago, when people were less skeptical than they are now, a radio broadcaster began giving a fake newscast about an alien attack, and people became very panicked because they believed it was real - the joke really backfired, because people took it seriously. Then, after that, they were uncertain whether to believe the news or not.
Trust is much easier to break than to rebuild.
What's the rest? ......... "Fool me twice, shame on me."
This is what I'm hearing when Thomas says,
"Unless I see in his hands the print of the nails, and place my finger in the mark of the nails, and place my hand in his side, I will not believe."Thomas had put everything into the belief that Jesus was the Messiah, the one his people had been waiting for. He trusted Jesus. He believed him. Totally. Hook, line and sinker. Gave up his whole life to follow.
But then Jesus got arrested and killed. And what is a dead Messiah? A dead Messiah had to have been, as CS Lewis framed it, either a liar or a lunatic. Only a live Messiah could be the Lord, but this one was clearly dead.
That had to be a hard pill to swallow, especially on that 'long Saturday' when no one knew what was going on and all they could do was wait to see what would happen next. Nobody had any idea. The hope that Jesus' followers had for a Messiah had been crucified with him. They had put everything into that hope, and it was gone. He was gone. What now?
Nothing - nothing to do but wait.
In TS Eliot's The Four Quartets, he writes
"I said to my soul, be still, and wait without hope
For hope would be hope of the wrong thing; wait without love
For love would be love of the wrong thing; there is yet faith
But the faith and the love and the hope are all in the waiting." (East Coker, III)
Then, suddenly, people are all over the place saying that Jesus was alive again. He had risen from the dead.
It's hard enough to bury the beautiful dream that you had to watch die so painfully. It's unbearable to have people teasing you with the hope that it's not really dead. Because that's what you wish so much could be true that you can hardly bear even to let yourself think it, much less say it out loud. And when other people are saying it, it's hard not to at least want to believe. But he was not going to fall for that again.
Some people hold their hope close to the surface, and it blooms at the first hint of spring. Others push it down deep where maybe it will survive a freeze. But I think God's the one who planted it in all of us.
This is why I think that, even though Jesus gets on Thomas a little for making it so hard for himself to believe, he still walks through that wall of doubt, past the locked door, to reach him inside.
Whatever it takes, Thomas... Whatever you need to believe it's true - because it is true...
"Put your finger here, and see my hands; and put out your hand, and place it in my side; do not be faithless, but believing."
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Given to St. John's, Silsbee
March 30, 2008
In our society, we've had a lot of broken trusts - in the family and in the larger culture - divorce rates and spousal abuse, child abuse and elder abuse are pretty high; political scandal is commonplace now; we can't keep track of all the professional sports, music and movie stars who are on drugs; not only stockbrokers but even economists are gambling with the finance markets; leaders in corporations and non-profit groups embezzle money frequently - and the church is not immune to any of these things, certainly. The preacher's wife murdering her husband, TV evangelists confessing to everything imaginable, priests molesting children.
Belief in anything truly good has become kind of a quaint notion. People in my generation grew up in a very commercial culture. There's not a lot people my age believe in - although it seems there's a lot they would like to believe. It's just that we've learned by experience that most things are a lie - to sell you something or get something from you. Exploitation, not charity is the normal motivation for a lot of interactions in our culture.
Why do people from various companies, organizations, or colleges call at 6 pm on a weeknight? Because they want you to give them money, obviously.
Why is public school attendance encouraged and rewarded and non-attendance punished? Because education will make children's lives better or because attendance figures determine state funding? What about all those tests? Hard to say sometimes.
What about the health care system - who determines your treatment?
Many people by now expect to be used and mistreated - it comes as a suprise when someone seems genuinely honest - and the key word there is 'seems.' Because even our desire for authenticity has been caught up in marketing strategy - I encourage you to notice this week how many ads use words like 'real' 'genuine' and 'authentic.' Some are beginning to pick up on that also, and we're even more suspicious when we meet someone making claims of truth or authenticity - because we're waiting for the real truth to come out - it almost always does - what is it you want from me?
Mainly, the goal is not to be taken in, not to be hoodwinked, taken for a ride or taken advantage of.
Do you know these?
"Once bitten, twice shy"
"Fool me once, shame on you...."
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Sunday, November 18, 2007
The end of the world
Year C - Pentecost, Proper 28
Readings: Malachi 3:13-4:2a,5-62 Thessalonians 3:6-13 Luke 21:5-19 Psalm 98 or 98:5-10
Lord, thank you that your steadfast love never ends, and your mercy is new every morning. Amen.A main theme of today's lectionary readings is 'the end.'Often, people interpret these and similar passages as giving predictions for ‘The End of the World…’ But is it necessary to destroy the entire world for it to 'count' as the end of something significant?
From a historical perspective, this particular passage is talking about the destruction of the temple in Jerusalem, and later, the fall of Jerusalem itself, which took place in 70 AD. This did not constitute global annihilation, but it was enough to be 'the end' for them, and it's that aspect we can apply to today.
This passage isn't a prophecy of hidden clues to predict OUR future; it's a specific story of past devastation and destruction, through which we can learn to recognize the same kinds of endings in the present.
Around the world, there is plenty of upheaval bringing destruction to other communities and peoples. In some parts of Africa, the AIDS epidemic has brought about an end to the family structure of an entire generation by killing off the parents and infecting their children. I think for these kids, it's enough to count as the end of the world.
Genocide and civil war in Chechnya, Darfur, Rwanda and other places has brought an end to social order, destroyed entire communities and devastated people groups. I think it's enough to count as the end of the world to them.
The story after this gospel reading, after the destruction of the temple and the sacking of Jerusalem - the rest of the story after 'the end' - isn't recorded here, but we know that it has included restoration. After exile and dispersion, some of the story has included coming back and rebuilding; even after 'the end', the story continued and continues still. The end was also a beginning because of the people's hope and endurance.
To interpret this story for today, we need to look at lots of endings - not get caught up in the idea of one big final ending and spend energy worrying about it and trying to avoid it. This attitude leads to the situation Paul was addressing in 2 Thessalonians, where, instead of working and contributing to the community's life, some people were just waiting around for 'the day of the Lord.' They got so caught up in worrying about 'the end' that they were completely missing 'now'.
Instead, if we stay engaged in the story, we can recognize endings and work them toward new beginnings. One of the deacons in our diocese, for example, Linda Shelton, is involved in refugee resettlement. Some of these refugees, whose former lives have ended, are in the same situation as the 1st century Jews who were sent into exile.
People trying to begin again are all around us. A recent article in the Texas Episcopalian featured a parishioner from the church in Pflugerville, who fled Sudan to seek asylum here when his life was threatened because of reporting on the tragedies there. My mentor in the Iona school, Fr. Johannes George, fled Sierra Leone and devastation in that country and now serves the church in Alief.
What if this Gospel is not about predicting the end of the world so we can try and save ourselves, but instead is about recognizing and responding to the devastations of people around us - devastations which are smaller than global annihilation but are large enough to be the end of the world to those experiencing them?
This could mean a lot of work - but it makes our Epistle reading fit in very well - "do not be weary in doing what is right."
Who do you know whose world is ending - through divorce or a devastating illness, or the loss of a child? What has ended your world?
Let me tell you my experience of the end of the world. When I was 13, my mom suffered a ruptured brain aneurysm. I remember standing in a hallway during one of her surgeries, looking out an upper floor window of Parkland Memorial Hospital in Dallas. Traffic was going by on all the streets below, just as if this was any other day - as though the entire world was not falling apart. I was so angry at all of those people! Didn't they have any idea what was happening?!
Of course not, and I see it very differently now. But for several years, I stayed stuck in that ending. I couldn't imagine the world beginning again.
Interestingly, one of the things that enabled me to begin again was facing the same condition myself. In the process of getting it treated, I had to face some fears - including fears of 'the end' - and I discovered that God was with me there, and that true peace exists, and it is extremely solid.
I also realized that, because of a lot of people doing their work faithfully for years and years, my world was not going to end the way I feared. Some of these people may even have been the same ones driving to and from work the day I looked out that hospital window, mad at everyone whose world wasn't ending.
The collective efforts of biomechanical engineers, metallurgists, business people, ethicists, administrators, interventional radiologists, surgeons, nurses, and countless others I will never meet - all their work created a treatment option that hadn't existed before. So, while 50 years ago, my 2 aunts died of this condition, today, I'm fine.
Because of all those people, what could have been my end became a new beginning, and it has influenced my understanding of all kinds of work as service and vocation. It has also influenced my understanding of work as prayer - my prayers for healing, and those of my family and friends - were answered by God through the faithful use of talents given to numerous people, all doing different jobs well and working together.
I hope this encourages you in your work to view all of it as ministry and service to God - who through your faithfulness and obedience will answer the prayers of people you may never meet.
The point of discussing 'the end' is not to try and predict or avoid it, but rather to not become distracted or paralyzed by worrying about it. Our response when 'the end is near' - in any context - is to keep doing what's right - to be faithful and obedient - and to trust God to take care of the world and us.
After all, ‘He's got the whole world in his hands...’Julian of Norwich, writing in the middle ages, said this about a vision she saw concerning God's care for creation:
and e.e. cummings continues...
Readings: Malachi 3:13-4:2a,5-62 Thessalonians 3:6-13 Luke 21:5-19 Psalm 98 or 98:5-10
Lord, thank you that your steadfast love never ends, and your mercy is new every morning. Amen.A main theme of today's lectionary readings is 'the end.'Often, people interpret these and similar passages as giving predictions for ‘The End of the World…’ But is it necessary to destroy the entire world for it to 'count' as the end of something significant?
From a historical perspective, this particular passage is talking about the destruction of the temple in Jerusalem, and later, the fall of Jerusalem itself, which took place in 70 AD. This did not constitute global annihilation, but it was enough to be 'the end' for them, and it's that aspect we can apply to today.
This passage isn't a prophecy of hidden clues to predict OUR future; it's a specific story of past devastation and destruction, through which we can learn to recognize the same kinds of endings in the present.
Around the world, there is plenty of upheaval bringing destruction to other communities and peoples. In some parts of Africa, the AIDS epidemic has brought about an end to the family structure of an entire generation by killing off the parents and infecting their children. I think for these kids, it's enough to count as the end of the world.
Genocide and civil war in Chechnya, Darfur, Rwanda and other places has brought an end to social order, destroyed entire communities and devastated people groups. I think it's enough to count as the end of the world to them.
The story after this gospel reading, after the destruction of the temple and the sacking of Jerusalem - the rest of the story after 'the end' - isn't recorded here, but we know that it has included restoration. After exile and dispersion, some of the story has included coming back and rebuilding; even after 'the end', the story continued and continues still. The end was also a beginning because of the people's hope and endurance.
To interpret this story for today, we need to look at lots of endings - not get caught up in the idea of one big final ending and spend energy worrying about it and trying to avoid it. This attitude leads to the situation Paul was addressing in 2 Thessalonians, where, instead of working and contributing to the community's life, some people were just waiting around for 'the day of the Lord.' They got so caught up in worrying about 'the end' that they were completely missing 'now'.
Instead, if we stay engaged in the story, we can recognize endings and work them toward new beginnings. One of the deacons in our diocese, for example, Linda Shelton, is involved in refugee resettlement. Some of these refugees, whose former lives have ended, are in the same situation as the 1st century Jews who were sent into exile.
People trying to begin again are all around us. A recent article in the Texas Episcopalian featured a parishioner from the church in Pflugerville, who fled Sudan to seek asylum here when his life was threatened because of reporting on the tragedies there. My mentor in the Iona school, Fr. Johannes George, fled Sierra Leone and devastation in that country and now serves the church in Alief.
What if this Gospel is not about predicting the end of the world so we can try and save ourselves, but instead is about recognizing and responding to the devastations of people around us - devastations which are smaller than global annihilation but are large enough to be the end of the world to those experiencing them?
This could mean a lot of work - but it makes our Epistle reading fit in very well - "do not be weary in doing what is right."
Who do you know whose world is ending - through divorce or a devastating illness, or the loss of a child? What has ended your world?
Let me tell you my experience of the end of the world. When I was 13, my mom suffered a ruptured brain aneurysm. I remember standing in a hallway during one of her surgeries, looking out an upper floor window of Parkland Memorial Hospital in Dallas. Traffic was going by on all the streets below, just as if this was any other day - as though the entire world was not falling apart. I was so angry at all of those people! Didn't they have any idea what was happening?!
Of course not, and I see it very differently now. But for several years, I stayed stuck in that ending. I couldn't imagine the world beginning again.
Interestingly, one of the things that enabled me to begin again was facing the same condition myself. In the process of getting it treated, I had to face some fears - including fears of 'the end' - and I discovered that God was with me there, and that true peace exists, and it is extremely solid.
I also realized that, because of a lot of people doing their work faithfully for years and years, my world was not going to end the way I feared. Some of these people may even have been the same ones driving to and from work the day I looked out that hospital window, mad at everyone whose world wasn't ending.
The collective efforts of biomechanical engineers, metallurgists, business people, ethicists, administrators, interventional radiologists, surgeons, nurses, and countless others I will never meet - all their work created a treatment option that hadn't existed before. So, while 50 years ago, my 2 aunts died of this condition, today, I'm fine.
Because of all those people, what could have been my end became a new beginning, and it has influenced my understanding of all kinds of work as service and vocation. It has also influenced my understanding of work as prayer - my prayers for healing, and those of my family and friends - were answered by God through the faithful use of talents given to numerous people, all doing different jobs well and working together.
I hope this encourages you in your work to view all of it as ministry and service to God - who through your faithfulness and obedience will answer the prayers of people you may never meet.
The point of discussing 'the end' is not to try and predict or avoid it, but rather to not become distracted or paralyzed by worrying about it. Our response when 'the end is near' - in any context - is to keep doing what's right - to be faithful and obedient - and to trust God to take care of the world and us.
After all, ‘He's got the whole world in his hands...’Julian of Norwich, writing in the middle ages, said this about a vision she saw concerning God's care for creation:
"And in this he showed me a little thing, the quantity of a hazel nut , lying in the palm of my hand, as it seemed. And it was as round as any ball. I looked upon it with the eye of my understanding, and thought, 'What may this be?' And it was answered generally thus, 'It is all that is made.' I marveled how it might last, for I thought it might suddenly have fallen to nought for littleness. And I was answered in my understanding: It lasts and ever shall, for God loves it. And so have all things their beginning by the love of God.As the poet Gerard Manley Hopkins wrote:
In this little thing I saw three properties. The first is that God made it. The second, that he loves it. And the third, that God keeps it. "
And though the last lights off the black West went Oh, morning, at the brown brink eastward, springs -- Because the Holy Ghost over the bent World broods with warm breast and with ah! bright wings.
i thank You God for most this amazingTo this I would add - I thank you, God
day:for the leaping greenly spirits of trees
and a blue true dream of sky; and for everything
which is natural which is infinite which is yes
(i who have died am alive again today,
and this is the sun's birthday; this is the birth
day of life and of love and wings: and of the gay
great happening illimitably earth)
how should tasting touching hearing seeing
breathing any--lifted from the no
of all nothing--human merely being
doubt unimaginable You?
(now the ears of my ears awake and
now the eyes of my eyes are opened)
for the end of the world,
because you make it into a new beginning.
Amen.
Amen.
Lord God, almighty and everlasting Father, you have brought us in safety to this new day: Preserve us with your mighty power, that we may not fall into temptation, nor be overcome by adversity; and in all we do, direct us to the fulfilling of your purpose; through Jesus Christ our Lord. (BCP)
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Sunday, September 23, 2007
About cheating
Year C - Pentecost, Proper 20
Readings: Amos 8:4-7(8-12); 1 Timothy 2:1-8; Luke 16:1-13; Psalm 138
Lord, may we know your word, speak your word, and love your word. Amen.Today’s OT and Gospel readings both talk about cheating.
Basically, if you’re cheating anyone, stop it - especially if you’re cheating poor people or anyone at a disadvantage to you.
The message in Amos is very harsh toward people cheating the poor.
‘Hear this, you who trample the needy… The Lord has sworn… "I will never forget…"’Amos describes some methods people were using in his day to increase their profits by tricking or cheating their customers.
"Skimping the measure, boosting the price, and cheating with dishonest scales…selling even the sweepings with the wheat."Methods are the same today – for example, next time you get gas, notice the sticker on the pump that certifies the pump has been checked to ensure it pumps a gallon of gas for a gallon of gas.
And when I pay $.75 for a bag of chips from the vending machine, and 2/3 of it is air, with 5 chips in the bottom, I feel like someone is skimping the measure.
Now, a popular method of ‘boosting the price’ seems to be tacking on lots of little fees and surcharges for things you didn’t request but didn’t know you had to exclude.
Then there’s the whole area of financing, which invariably ends up making people with less money pay a lot more. Currently, the issue of sub-prime mortgages has been in the news a lot. From what I gather, these are high-risk, high-interest loans made to people who probably really can’t afford to buy a home – and sure enough, most of them couldn’t pay, especially with the high interest. Now, their houses are being foreclosed on, and that whole area of the market has collapsed, sending other sectors of the economy into a tailspin.
Who’s most affected by this? People who can least afford it.
By way of contrast, last year’s Nobel Peace Prize went to an economist who developed a system of micro-lending to help very poor people start businesses. These loans have been so successful that whole sectors of the economies in many developing nations have been strengthened.
It’s not a matter of money – it’s a matter of the lender’s motives.
It’s a matter of justice.
What about credit cards? How are credit cards marketed?
They’re often presented as sources of cash flow – offered to people who have very little cash… like college students. When I was in college, credit card companies would set up tables in the SUB and give away ‘free’ stuff to people filling out applications. Talk about ‘buying…the needy for a pair of sandals"…
So, in addition to tuition, room and board (which we took out loans for), students were encouraged to rack up additional expenses on credit cards with high interest rates. Pretty much every college student I know is at least up to their eyeballs in debt, and even if they find a good job, they’ll spend a substantial chunk of their lives paying it back.
In the meantime, what if they need to buy a house? …. Remember, the housing market has basically collapsed.
And these are college graduates – what’s the situation for people without a degree?
And there’s no time to talk about who doesn’t have health insurance or what you learned about the insurance on your house after Rita…Many things in our society are unbalanced – usually in the favor of whoever has the money, power, or influence. Think Jack Abramoff… and the influence of lobbies on the laws that get made.
If you’re going to oppress or neglect someone, it’s easiest to oppress or ignore the people who are without representation – the poor, the weak, the uneducated, the powerless – because they don’t fight back as much.
BUT, they do have a key advocate. God seems to have a particular concern and care for these folks. And as the Church, we’d better be looking out for them, too. We’d certainly better NOT be contributing to injustice against them.Many times, particularly in the prophets, God’s word is that he doesn’t care about sacrifices and ceremonies – not if the rest of the week is full of injustice. Earlier in Amos, the prophet delivers this message from the Lord:
I hate, I despise your festivals, / and I take no delight in your solemn assemblies…
Take away from me the noise of your songs; / I will not listen to the noise of your harps.
But let justice roll down like waters, / and righteousness like an ever-rolling stream.Over and over again, God’s theme is Justice:
"And what does the Lord require of you but to do justice…." (Micah 6:8)But cheating perverts justice, turns it upside down, makes it meaningless.
And if we, as Christians, representing Christ (because we do) – if we cheat people, especially disadvantaged people, not only does it destroy their trust in us personally, but they can associate our behavior with the Church, and with Christ – and they can decide that, if that’s what Christianity is, they want nothing of it.
They’re chased away from hope because they don’t hear, don’t see evidence in us of God’s particular care for the poor, the sick, the weak, and the lonely.
If we, who profess to know and follow God, commit injustice, this puts a barrier in front of people who need hope in God more than anything else - and that’s inexcusable.
This may sound like overkill if all the injustice you did this week was cheat on your math homework.
But part of the message from Luke’s gospel is that, unless they stop – and turn around – little cheaters grow to be big cheaters.
It’s only a matter of time and degree from cheating on tests to cheating on taxes.
The mindset that justifies it and the basic pattern are the same.
As a person gains more responsibility, cheating has wider ramifications.
Think about Enron. How many people lost their jobs? How many lost their retirement?
So if you’re cheating at anything, stop now.
If you’re not – don’t start.In light of all this, the gospel reading from Luke sounds pretty odd.
Here’s a story of a guy who gets fired for cheating his boss, and then his boss compliments him for how clever his cheating was.
What was Jesus trying to say by telling this story?
And why did he pick a cheater as the main character?I don’t know, but my theory is maybe he wanted to show that he knows what kinds of things people get into, and he’s not shocked that people cheat.
When we cheat, God’s not shocked; God knows us already better than we know ourselves. He knows, and he’s not shocked. God can even appreciate the ingenuity and talents we used to do it, since God’s the one who gave us those gifts, but it’s a shame for us to use them on schemes instead of doing something good with them.
It’s also a shame if we don’t use our gifts for anything at all – maybe thinking the only thing we can offer to the church is the gift of being ‘nice’ while we’re here. But there are a lot of attributes natural to each one of you that really contribute to the life and health of the church.
What if you’re not necessarily that nice, but you’re strong? Great! We have heavy stuff.
What if you’re funny? Excellent – there are people here who could use a laugh.
What if you’re good at soccer? What if you know all about horses? What if you can explain complicated things? What if you think about things in simple terms? What if you plan things? What if you read, write, paint – draw, sing, or dance?
Fantastic! Obviously God thinks the church needs it, because he gave it to you and brought you here.Part of Luke’s commentary on the story of the dishonest manager is to say basically that ‘it’s a shame the world is more creative than the church is…’
It’s true –
How much time and money and artistic talent – genius even – go into making a Super Bowl commercial to get people to drink beer or change their car insurance?
How much goes into trying to get people to come to church?People are capable of amazing feats of ingenuity and persistence. Think of anybody who’s dating. Guys and girls both will do all kinds of clever, creative, crazy things to impress a date. Did you see the movie 50 First Dates ? - perfect example.
What if that kind of creativity were given toward honoring God? If we think about how we’re spending our time and creativity now, then cut out the worthless and bad things (which God’s not shocked about because He already knows)
What would we do differently?
Think about it – Make some changes
And let’s see what God will do with us.
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Given to St. John's, Silsbee
Sept. 23, 2007
Readings: Amos 8:4-7(8-12); 1 Timothy 2:1-8; Luke 16:1-13; Psalm 138
Lord, may we know your word, speak your word, and love your word. Amen.Today’s OT and Gospel readings both talk about cheating.
Basically, if you’re cheating anyone, stop it - especially if you’re cheating poor people or anyone at a disadvantage to you.
The message in Amos is very harsh toward people cheating the poor.
‘Hear this, you who trample the needy… The Lord has sworn… "I will never forget…"’Amos describes some methods people were using in his day to increase their profits by tricking or cheating their customers.
"Skimping the measure, boosting the price, and cheating with dishonest scales…selling even the sweepings with the wheat."Methods are the same today – for example, next time you get gas, notice the sticker on the pump that certifies the pump has been checked to ensure it pumps a gallon of gas for a gallon of gas.
And when I pay $.75 for a bag of chips from the vending machine, and 2/3 of it is air, with 5 chips in the bottom, I feel like someone is skimping the measure.
Now, a popular method of ‘boosting the price’ seems to be tacking on lots of little fees and surcharges for things you didn’t request but didn’t know you had to exclude.
Then there’s the whole area of financing, which invariably ends up making people with less money pay a lot more. Currently, the issue of sub-prime mortgages has been in the news a lot. From what I gather, these are high-risk, high-interest loans made to people who probably really can’t afford to buy a home – and sure enough, most of them couldn’t pay, especially with the high interest. Now, their houses are being foreclosed on, and that whole area of the market has collapsed, sending other sectors of the economy into a tailspin.
Who’s most affected by this? People who can least afford it.
By way of contrast, last year’s Nobel Peace Prize went to an economist who developed a system of micro-lending to help very poor people start businesses. These loans have been so successful that whole sectors of the economies in many developing nations have been strengthened.
It’s not a matter of money – it’s a matter of the lender’s motives.
It’s a matter of justice.
What about credit cards? How are credit cards marketed?
They’re often presented as sources of cash flow – offered to people who have very little cash… like college students. When I was in college, credit card companies would set up tables in the SUB and give away ‘free’ stuff to people filling out applications. Talk about ‘buying…the needy for a pair of sandals"…
So, in addition to tuition, room and board (which we took out loans for), students were encouraged to rack up additional expenses on credit cards with high interest rates. Pretty much every college student I know is at least up to their eyeballs in debt, and even if they find a good job, they’ll spend a substantial chunk of their lives paying it back.
In the meantime, what if they need to buy a house? …. Remember, the housing market has basically collapsed.
And these are college graduates – what’s the situation for people without a degree?
And there’s no time to talk about who doesn’t have health insurance or what you learned about the insurance on your house after Rita…Many things in our society are unbalanced – usually in the favor of whoever has the money, power, or influence. Think Jack Abramoff… and the influence of lobbies on the laws that get made.
If you’re going to oppress or neglect someone, it’s easiest to oppress or ignore the people who are without representation – the poor, the weak, the uneducated, the powerless – because they don’t fight back as much.
BUT, they do have a key advocate. God seems to have a particular concern and care for these folks. And as the Church, we’d better be looking out for them, too. We’d certainly better NOT be contributing to injustice against them.Many times, particularly in the prophets, God’s word is that he doesn’t care about sacrifices and ceremonies – not if the rest of the week is full of injustice. Earlier in Amos, the prophet delivers this message from the Lord:
I hate, I despise your festivals, / and I take no delight in your solemn assemblies…
Take away from me the noise of your songs; / I will not listen to the noise of your harps.
But let justice roll down like waters, / and righteousness like an ever-rolling stream.Over and over again, God’s theme is Justice:
"And what does the Lord require of you but to do justice…." (Micah 6:8)But cheating perverts justice, turns it upside down, makes it meaningless.
And if we, as Christians, representing Christ (because we do) – if we cheat people, especially disadvantaged people, not only does it destroy their trust in us personally, but they can associate our behavior with the Church, and with Christ – and they can decide that, if that’s what Christianity is, they want nothing of it.
They’re chased away from hope because they don’t hear, don’t see evidence in us of God’s particular care for the poor, the sick, the weak, and the lonely.
If we, who profess to know and follow God, commit injustice, this puts a barrier in front of people who need hope in God more than anything else - and that’s inexcusable.
This may sound like overkill if all the injustice you did this week was cheat on your math homework.
But part of the message from Luke’s gospel is that, unless they stop – and turn around – little cheaters grow to be big cheaters.
It’s only a matter of time and degree from cheating on tests to cheating on taxes.
The mindset that justifies it and the basic pattern are the same.
As a person gains more responsibility, cheating has wider ramifications.
Think about Enron. How many people lost their jobs? How many lost their retirement?
So if you’re cheating at anything, stop now.
If you’re not – don’t start.In light of all this, the gospel reading from Luke sounds pretty odd.
Here’s a story of a guy who gets fired for cheating his boss, and then his boss compliments him for how clever his cheating was.
What was Jesus trying to say by telling this story?
And why did he pick a cheater as the main character?I don’t know, but my theory is maybe he wanted to show that he knows what kinds of things people get into, and he’s not shocked that people cheat.
When we cheat, God’s not shocked; God knows us already better than we know ourselves. He knows, and he’s not shocked. God can even appreciate the ingenuity and talents we used to do it, since God’s the one who gave us those gifts, but it’s a shame for us to use them on schemes instead of doing something good with them.
It’s also a shame if we don’t use our gifts for anything at all – maybe thinking the only thing we can offer to the church is the gift of being ‘nice’ while we’re here. But there are a lot of attributes natural to each one of you that really contribute to the life and health of the church.
What if you’re not necessarily that nice, but you’re strong? Great! We have heavy stuff.
What if you’re funny? Excellent – there are people here who could use a laugh.
What if you’re good at soccer? What if you know all about horses? What if you can explain complicated things? What if you think about things in simple terms? What if you plan things? What if you read, write, paint – draw, sing, or dance?
Fantastic! Obviously God thinks the church needs it, because he gave it to you and brought you here.Part of Luke’s commentary on the story of the dishonest manager is to say basically that ‘it’s a shame the world is more creative than the church is…’
It’s true –
How much time and money and artistic talent – genius even – go into making a Super Bowl commercial to get people to drink beer or change their car insurance?
How much goes into trying to get people to come to church?People are capable of amazing feats of ingenuity and persistence. Think of anybody who’s dating. Guys and girls both will do all kinds of clever, creative, crazy things to impress a date. Did you see the movie 50 First Dates ? - perfect example.
What if that kind of creativity were given toward honoring God? If we think about how we’re spending our time and creativity now, then cut out the worthless and bad things (which God’s not shocked about because He already knows)
What would we do differently?
Think about it – Make some changes
And let’s see what God will do with us.
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Given to St. John's, Silsbee
Sept. 23, 2007
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